I am really worried about caffeine. I am worried about it because I have started drinking far too much of it. There is a fantastic, $3,000 pump espresso machine at the estate. In the last three weeks I have gotten in the habit of pouring myself a deep espresso whenever I walk in, particularly if its before noon. For three weeks that meant a cup every morning. By the second week I was having one after lunch as well. Two cups of strong, but wonderful espresso per day.
I tried to stop last week. I couldn't. Seriously, I couldn't. I would catch myself with a cup and barely remember where and when I had obtained it. When I finally tracked my consumption I was alarmed to find that I have gotten up to 4 or 5 cups a day.
I am not a hypochondriac by even the most remote stretch of the imagination but I have no doubt at all that I can feel the effect on me. I can feel a tightness in my chest in the afternoon. I can feel the anxiety eating at me. I can feel the impact on my body already.
Maybe Milosevic was drinking espresso.
I need to stop drinking caffeine. Soon.