It is an alarming thing to sit through a meeting where people are busy talking about you as if you aren't there. Well, perhaps eerie is a better descriptor. I sat through nearly 2 hours of conference call discussing Sub Rosa's new Europe venture and, in particular, the staffing of the new office. At one point it was hinted that the upward career path for the junior staff was in Europe. "Exclusively." Two or three pairs of quickly averted eyes looked my way. I was the youngest employee in the room at the time.
Alas, there is no update. I am still in limbo. After the career comment I secretly hope I am sent. Armin seems to be gearing to move himself, and I have to think that means I'll be pulled along. Another side of me, however, despises the idea. I feel like I have just gotten settled here. Not that I have much of a social life, but at least there are the distant hints of it. To start over again, I just don't know.
I am not a particularly good waiter. I have to totally sink myself into something distracting (a spa treatment sounds good right about now) to stop worrying. Now if only I could find the time to spa....